The Shock of the Shift

The recent shock in my life has activated something within me I thought was dead. Now I'm confused.
Need more hugs...

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This week the world has shifted. A tragic twist that makes me cry. Too many emotions all at once. Need many hugs and much hand holding.

Happy New Year?

Trying to write a poem on new year resolutions and failing that as I'm failing my actual ones. There's irony for you. Many things happening this year. I want to give up things, but can't work out the most sensible one to give up. I want to go abroad, back to France. I want to fix my house and move forward with it. But my budget only allows for one of those things. I may have to sacrifice holiday for home this year and get my house done. Maybe if I spend loads of time outside in the summer, then it'll feel like a holiday.

I have to lose weight this year - my incentive - an oophectemy. What joy!

I'm on too many committees. Do I give one up? Or do I jump in feet first? Try to achieve something grand and long lasting?

So far I'm undecided. I'll keep you posted.

Me in my small corner

I'm really struggling this week with the life thing or the hormone thing - not sure which. I feel like I've got myself stuck in a corner, like a robot toy and I can't turn round and go the other way. Each way I go is just not enough to get me out, like doing a million point turn. Usually I'm optimistic I'll get out, but this week I'm not so sure. 

And then there's the NICE thing. Being nice. At work I have to be nice to everyone, even the people who are not nice to me, or a bit rude or downright horrible. Then the flip side, I'm nice to person I'm in love with because I haven't told him I'm in love with him, because he doesn't think of me that way and I don't want to lose his friendship. So there I am - can you see me? I'm down there STUCK in the corner - BEING NICE....

Scammed for life?

I think I may have been scammed today. I'm not sure, but it makes me nervous anyway.

Bearly Getting By

I'd like to befriend a man who can do impressions of Yogi Bear and Booboo, so that I can request it lots and lots.

Restless

I've got to the point where I can't tidy cos there's nowhere to put things. So that calls for one thing...da da daaa...moving furniture. I haven't done it for a while and my idea is huge and it might not work, but I'm feeling energized, so I'm gonna do it. Maybe not today, maybe not tomorrow, but soon...

Ok not tomorrow, as coursework to do. One last task for Monday, one more report for next Monday, then two assignments for the end of the month. That gives me a week to do each one. I think I know where that energy has come from now.